I cannot...

Being heartbroken is a pain that no one can understand until they have experienced it for themselves. You obviously have, therefore are aware of how fragile your heart is right now. Healing a broken heart will take time, but is not impossible, though it may feel that way at the time. It is never an easy process to go through, but with the right prescription, you will be on your way to recovery and happiness again. It is perfectly normal to feel sad and cry after a break up. You have invested most of your time and all of your love and interest into your ex-boyfriend; therefore will go through a sad and painful withdrawal. Talking about it is not only healthy, but will mend your heart quicker because you will release the thoughts and facts that are hurting you so much. I know that you are still hurt with our break up 'cause you don't want to talk about it with your present girlfriend now. I am hoping that you don't love her. I'm not going to be selfish but frankly saying I still love you. No one could help me gather my strength, pick myself up, and find the happiness I deserve to have. If you catch yourself unable to function due to constantly thinking about your ex or repeatedly calling or visiting her for another chance, then chances are you are suffering from love addiction and should seek counseling. Fight the thoughts that tell you that you are a failure and are to blame for the end of your relationship. When a relationship ends it means that the two of you were no longer compatible and that always takes two, not just you. Instead of beating yourself up over what has transpired, examine your ex-relationship by listing the things you enjoyed most about it and then the things that disappointed you and what you believe really caused the breakup.

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I realized that I'm not totally happy...

I am telling everyone that there's nothing wrong with me...That's what I feel. I'm telling myself that I'm ok but then one time, when I'm alone, I realized that I'm really not ok. I don't why am I going this way... I hate being not at myself. As of now, I don't know who I am. I don't know what my problem is? I can't understand myself. How could I help myself? I thought I am happy ready enough to face him. But the moment I saw him I couldn't talk to him. I want to talk to him. I missed him so much. I beleive that first love never dies. I can't forget him though I'm telling anyone that I don't love him anymore. Everytime I saw him, I feel the sadness that I try to hide to everyone. I tried it but then my feelings can't change. What does it mean? Do I still love him? I tried to forget him but I still cannot. I don't know what to do now? I think I tried my best but still I can't. When he's still alive, I can say that I don;t forget him. I think we he died already, It will be easy for me to forget him already.
One time, he viewed my profile in friendster, I started thinking of him. I want to blame him that it was his fault! He made a way for me to remember him! I hope he still loves me... I want to talk to him. I don't care what will others say but I still love him. I can't avoid thinking of him. I hope one time he will go to visit in our school and I will really talk to him. I miss everything with him.

Basketball Girls: Red VS. Blue

As the reds strive hard for their basketball game, the blue tried to apply their best skills. Proving that they got the overwhelming fury to reign chaos on the Basketball Girls, blazing Macintosh demolished the Vaio on the championship stake, 18-15 at the CNSHS' baskteball court. Macintosh outran Vaio in the succeeding quarters. Vaio were not that fast to cope with the Macintosh's speed. Vaio never let go of their revenge with the Macintosh. It was a rundown game but in the 3rd quarter the Vaio ran and crushed down the Macintosh but then the Macintosh remained strong and the Vaio was not able to cope with the Macintosh. Macintosh still holds the strenght and even made it stronger.

Acers Spikers Crushed Macintosh Netters!

There was a great fight between the Green Acers which are the first years and the Red Macintosh who are the third years. Their first game was really good. It even came until to the third set. The score of each team was too closed! And for the second time, they faced again in the championship bearing their confidence and their shocking spikes! Both teams are really deserving to be in the championship. They are both smashers!!! At the first set, the Macintosh won over the Acers. The Macintosh all yelled and cheered for their players. The Macintosh won with the score of 25-17. The first set was in favor of the Red Macintosh. Then on the second set, it was a very close fight. The score of each team is changing intheir every spikes, serves, and smashes! Both sides of the court was hot for the score. The student around the court can feel the pressure felt by the players in the court. In the second set, the Acers won against the Red Macintosh. The Acers were proud with what they did. As the Acers celebrate, the Macintosh became too pressured as we can see with their faces! In the third set, it seems that the Macintosh will win. The acers blocked their concentration and got their score even higher. Then the Macintosh played better for the higher score over the Acers. It was the last 5 for the win of Macintosh but then the Acers ran out and scored until they got 25 and the Acers won the third set. The Champion for the volleyball girls were the Acers! They were really great! They don't lose yet. They made a record! Take not, they are just first years!

MACINTOSH: Led the Cheerdance!

Go, go juniors! Whoo!!! I was expecting that the seniors will win in the cheer dancing. The moment I saw the performance of the seniors, I told myself, "hala! we're second..." because they were really good... I told Dei, that they were really good but for us, we don't aim to win we aim to prove something...haha!!!

The program started already, the cheerleader of each team were called on the stage...I don't expect that they will push me to be the representative...and I don't know what to do! I hate it! I just did anything that comes up with my mind. I just go with the flow of the music. Hmm..after that, I was very very shy! grrr...

Then, the first years showed theirs already. It was cute! Then we're next already. All of us seems so nervous! Then fortunately, we performed well, as we here the yell of everybody, we become more energetic to perform. After that, the team VAIO performed already! They were really good They were followed by the yellow ASUS.

Then it was the announcement of the winners for the cheerdance already! We are praying thet we could win! And God heard it! We won! When it was told that the VAIO was in the second place! The MACINTOSH all yelled! Yes! We don't expect that we will win! We are expecting that the VAIO will win! But thank God! MAC-INT-OSH macintosh!!!