Research Proposal

Sir..My research output was in the second page, and maybe you just didn't see it. Here's my research output sir.

Problem: What are the effects of different light wavelength to the starch produced by a pechay plant?

Objective: To determine the effects of different light wave length to the starch produced by a pechay plant.

Materials:
8 different colors of light
8 pechay plants
8 identical pots with the same type of soil

Sir, I'm still looking for a better procedure because the one that I have found was too complicated.

Sir,thanks!

-Maria Lorena A. Miranda, III-Oxygen

Started and ended with too much pain...

"And it all began when I met you..." I think my love story had begun when I met this guy. He was my first serious and formal boyfriend. It all started January 14, 2007 when we met each other. At first I really don't know him, then my friend Janina just introduced me to him because they said that that guy likes me. I don't believe that time because I know that he has girlfriend and I even know that girl. I thought for the first time that It was just a joke. I really don't like him. He got my number from my friends and texted me, knowing much about me. His first text was "eow poh! pde poh b mkipgkaibigan?" , so I asked his name, then he gave his name. I didn't recognized his name easily then I just knew it when he let me remembered the day Janina introduced me to him. Obviously I really didn't care about our first meeting. We became friends, then sometimes he's going in our room, my classmates said that he's visiting me. I told them that he has girlfriend already.Then since then, he didn't text me, nor visit me in our room. February 9, 2007 I saw him with his girlfriend, I felt the pain inside and I don't know why, it seems so dark everywhere. I can feel the intense pain that I was not really expecting. Then my friends just let me realized that I am loving him already. I kept away from him to avoid laving him because he is committed to his girlfriend. After a month, he told me that he broke up with his girl because the girl fooled her. I don't feel pity of him instead I got angry at him because I was thinking that why did he tell me so? What is his intention? to let me fall in love with him? But then girls are very patient and kindhearted, I accepted him as whom he is. He courted me and I answered him after 2 months. After that we are already formally committed. I loved him so much. We last for one year and 2 months and we had our very emotional break up personally because he is loving someone already. I decide to quit from that relationship even though it's too hard for me to do that. I just thought that it was the best thing to do. With in that one year of relationship, I loved him so much and the same thing with him, when we had our break up, it was too emotional like what I said so. I was not expecting that he would cry, he cried at my front and asking for apology. Iwant to forget everything that time, like a computer I want to erase everything. Our love story began and ended with a pain that I feel. Love is really unexpected. I was not happy with my first love but I learned a lot of things from him and I thanked him very much for that. I hope that when the time that I fall in love again, I want to be wiser at all. I don't want the pain anymore but it can't be avoided because since you love, you'll surely experience the happiness and especially the pain that you can't hide.

Poem for me..

Staring Through The Night

Walking of the mind in these drying seas,
Without whom I've waited for all these years.
It's like the Achilles heel of the heart,
Just waking up with nothing from the start.

You are the one I'm thinking through the night,
There are just somethings I can't live without.
Dreaming of that we're alone together,
It's just simply makes me a bit stronger.

No one can deny what I feel for you,
A mystery without a single clue.
I want you near me, even in my dreams,
In silence without any noise or screams.

Far away looking at you endlessly,
But you're happy now whenever I see.
So from a distance I'm getting good view,
Of what's used to be mine and it was you.

If you come back, It would change everything,
I'd do all this just to make your heart sing.
Please don't say goodbye my one and only,
For I don't want to miss you so badly.

A promise to never leave each other,
But now lonely without any partner.
Just give me one chance to prove my feeling,
You wont regret even a single thing.

Won't you even talk to me this one time,
Just say yes and my heart is in cloud nine.
Now don't tell me that you want to be free,
It's just to sad now you will leave me.

Told you to save me your last dance tonight,
Cause this is the last time to prove I'm right.
I know that you are too good to be true,
I simply want to say I LOVE YOU...XD

Bakit gnun??

Nakakainis tlg..pgdting tlg s love..wala tatanga tanga akoh.. bkit akoh gnun n lng prti..ngsswa n koh..gusto koh n mging man hater! I hate this life! *********** mahal n mhal kita..kaw lng tlg!!! Sdyng tnga lng akoh..naung my iba k n..sna msya k s knya at seryosohin moh xia..alam koh n mhal moh xia at khit ppno ngkron k ng sama ng loob sken kso ndi koh lng maitnung sayo..sna mbasa moh din tong blog koh n toh.s tuwing nkkta koh kaung mgksma prng dinudurog ang puso koh s skit n nrrmdmn koh..pero para sayo kkynin koh un..mghihintay akoh hbng buhay pra lng sau... Mahal n mhal kita..sna mlmn moh ung totoong dhilan kung bkit kita iniwan dti..iba ang alam mong dhilan..pero sana mlmn moh..san mging mlinaw sayo ang lht...i can wait for u..sana bumalik k n..

Why Do I Can't Get Over?

This has been a journey that I can only compare to climbing Mt. Everest with only one arm and four legs. It has been a long journey when we are together and maybe this time it would be longer journey to get over him...
But now I see him out with his new girlfriends and it really marks a scar on my heart. I don't even know what I feel. Honestly, I'm missing him a lot. It's not yet a year since we broke up. It was just 8 months and 4 months to go and I am hoping with that 4 months I rally can get over him. I threw all the things that let me remind of him. I deleted him in my friends list in my friendster account but then he's memories remain. I can't forget him. Many guys have tried to court me and help me to get over him but still whom I like is him! Aaaahhh!!! I hate myself! I am being fooled by myself! I feel sorry to the guys that tried their best to defeat Lester from me but they were not. I would rather die than to still remember him this way! I don't like this situation anymore. I getting so emo even if I really don't want! Please..Save me from this foolish world!

I See A New Me From You...

I have no idea what's happening to me. Never thought I'd miss you so badly. I knew my feelings for you were strong, way beyond what I was willing to admit even to myself. Just didn't realize they were so strong.I have no idea if this is right or wrong. I know that the desire to be true to our friendship is stronger than ever. It seems that in loving you I have the same objectives as being your friend.As I have always said, for me loving you does not mean needing you, it meant wanting you. What I need is to see you happy. Happy, content, with a bright outlook on life. Self confident, full of self esteem and self belief. Positive about yourself and your future. With the strength to face up to the mistakes of your past and the strength to look to your future with hope.I would love to see you be mine, but do not need that. I would gladly see you walk into the sunset with another if I knew it would be for the best for you. The pain and hurt and disappointment I would feel on not being that one would be wiped off with a smile from you.Just a foolish hope, a dream I know may never come true. You've given me hope for a better future but I never expect my life to stop crapping on me. I do not expect good things from life, and like it or not you would be the best thing. I will not qualify it by saying that this holds true now and may not do so later. No. You are the best. Period. If I do meet another later he will not be better, just different from you and as good.You are the best thing to have happened to me in a long long time. That you keep me as your friend, knowing my feelings for you and trust me so deeply means I can never betray your trust.I wonder if its right to want you, love you, want to do so much for you and yet to hold back from you? if I know then that you have escaped me and the same thing with you. Would you hold me back if I came?

an image of mine..

I Was Trapped and I Can't Escape...

I was trying to escape from the misery I had. My self, my own emotion I don't know how to actually fight myself when I do not know my weakness and my strenght. that I have to overcome. How would I start? You can see my smiles and my glad action. It's not obvious that I had trapped in the cage of sadness and trying to escape from it but I really can't. I am like a bird that wanted to be free. I want to shout and scream! I don't want to see myself crying and craving for something. I just want not to feel pity on my self. When I was alone, I can't prevent this tears from my silly eyes that are trying to escape when I see them together. I rather want to be blind than to see them together. Seeing them for a moment breaks not only my sight but mostly with my heart and I want to scream it out loud! Maybe when I am blind I would not be hurt like this but still my consciousness still and I definitely cannot escape from it no matter how hard I try. At last I will be hurt. Why can't I escape from this feeling inside, behind my heart and my mind? I wish this stupidity would be faded as what he did to me. I had my thoughts but I can't express it out. This feeling may remain in eternity if I can't escape with it. One thing I have to do is to try fight the loneliness that I was hiding when I met him...

Sacrifice..

I love my family, my cousins and my relatives, but were there times that we have to forget them for a while and just to think about our own happiness? Would we do what the heart beats or what our mind dictates? Well, it's love we're fighting for..isn't it? Were would we go? with our family or with the person you are fighting for?
There was a time in my life when I suffered from a hurtful decision whereas I have to use not only my heart but my mind that I know will lead me to my right decision. I told my self "Come what may..Loraine..." I have to chose from this options. It's either my happiness or theirs? My cousin had a girlfriend and his girlfriend liked someone and that guy whom her girlfriend like was my admirer. My cousin asked me to help him, but how? I asked myself... I must be committed to that guy so her girlfriend would stop minding that guy who admired me a lot. At that time, I love someone a lot and I think we are having mutual understanding but maybe it would not be it because I thought that my cousin really need me and that's the only way I can do. I HAVE TO SACRIFICE... I love my family and I don't want them to be somewhat like regretting..I just had some sad days that I can't recover so I think I can bring out this feeling inside because there still sacred pains that are to be hidden for the sake of their happiness. I know I can carry out this pain because before I had so much pain so what is it for now? Yeah...I know I'm just being brave to hold on with this..There's fire inside my heart that I was trying to escape from, and only one thing can give remedy. It's the way I hide the pain through my untruthful smiles...

One happy day...

That one happy day that I'm telling is December 18, 2008. The day before our Christmas Party. I was very tired that day yet so happy...= ) We went in SM Bacoor. I was with my tita while Loriza is with her classmates. I bought clothes for our Christmas Party, then we went in Quantum, my cousin and I played arcades there. Then I bought some gifts for my classmates and the one for my monito. I was to buy Alimuom for my monito but then there's nomre so I decide to buy a pair of slippers for him because he's always getting my slippers from me. Isn't it right?? ahaha...After that we ate our lunch. I saw the first years, there are so many sayaniztahs out there. I am expecting that so. After that we went in the department store and I bought shoes for me. When we are in the deparment store, it was to crowded that we can't roam around too much. We just bought some gifts again. I bought some clothes for my inaanaks. I have many inaanak, actually they are five. And they are all boys. When it's already 4 pm, we went home already. I stayed in my tita's house, then Loriza called up and she said that they have practice of the band that time so I went in Naic together with her and we went in Stanford's house because they have their own studio. At first Jenna, Chala, Loriza and I were the only there,. then Ej came with his bass guitar. Afterwards...Jam, Janina, Jezika, Kim, Stanford, Zyrex and Richard arrived already and we proceed to the Rosie's mall to have their practice there. We met Terrence on our way, riding on their car. She is about to ride us but we are too many. When we are about to be in the Rosie's mall we met Chrisna on our way and she is from SM. We made crowd on her. Then here we are in the Rosie's mall, we ate in the Jollibee. Ater a while we went up in the studio. Then we called Jenna and since that she is in hurry she bumped into the glass wall in the Jollibee. We don't know if no one saw that.. She's really funny that time. Then they had their practice and for the last 10 second of their time, they made noise and not music with the instruments. The two bands were really good. After that we went home already. We went home 10 pm already. Good thing our parents didn't scold us. What a happy day isn't it? I enjoyed this day with my friends because we are really makukulit... I hope this would happen again. hehe...

My Research Problem

The Effects of Infrared to the Growth of Chicken Embryo

Christmas Vacation..just a snap!

Happy Holidays!! OMG! The days we are waiting for! It's Christmas Vacation already! hahaha...I hope I would enjoy it. December 20, I do still have a hangover from the Christmas party yesterday! I really enjoyed that day. I opened the gifts from my friends and I was happy when I saw their gifts, almost all pink. They really know what I want! ahaha!! December 21, just nothing! Argh! I cleaned my room and It was really messy especially the teddy bears because they were all stocked there and they were full of dust! December 23, I was texting all day and I sat at the front of the computer like what I usually do everyday this vacation. I missed my friendster account a lot! Ahaha! I am fixing my profile and the same thing with the profile of Stimuli. Actually I am sawa already with friendster so I made a profile in other networking websites like Pagii! I liked it so much! Please add me ahaha!!! It's like friendster also but there you have to take care a kind of animal in your profile. Ahaha! December 24, I made my project in Filipino already the Suring Aklat because I'm done reading it already! Yehey! ahaha!!! I also helped my mother in preparing foods for the Noche Buena! December 25! It's Christmas day already! ahaha...Early morning my godson was there already. I give him 100 Php. After that I took a bath already then we went in Sanja Major here in Tanza to visit my great grand mother. After we have visited her, we went in SM Bacoor with my Tita and my cousin. We are to watch a film but there are many people in the Cinema Area so we just decided to stay in the Department Store and rome around. I bought gifts for Joan, Stanford, and my other classmates. I bought bracelets for all of them. I bought pair of clothes for my other godchildren that doesn't have gift from me yet. Then we went in the Toy Kingdom and bought some toys to be given to children. December 27, we went in Las Piñas and we were not able to go with our tropa (Jez, Joan, Mafi, Stanford, Kim, Kuma, Arturo,Zyrex) to watch film in SM Bacoor. We went in Las Piñas to visit my cousins. My titas gave me their pamasko to me. Ahaha..I received a bag, money and even simple keychains. I do appreciate them a lot!