I See A New Me From You...

I have no idea what's happening to me. Never thought I'd miss you so badly. I knew my feelings for you were strong, way beyond what I was willing to admit even to myself. Just didn't realize they were so strong.I have no idea if this is right or wrong. I know that the desire to be true to our friendship is stronger than ever. It seems that in loving you I have the same objectives as being your friend.As I have always said, for me loving you does not mean needing you, it meant wanting you. What I need is to see you happy. Happy, content, with a bright outlook on life. Self confident, full of self esteem and self belief. Positive about yourself and your future. With the strength to face up to the mistakes of your past and the strength to look to your future with hope.I would love to see you be mine, but do not need that. I would gladly see you walk into the sunset with another if I knew it would be for the best for you. The pain and hurt and disappointment I would feel on not being that one would be wiped off with a smile from you.Just a foolish hope, a dream I know may never come true. You've given me hope for a better future but I never expect my life to stop crapping on me. I do not expect good things from life, and like it or not you would be the best thing. I will not qualify it by saying that this holds true now and may not do so later. No. You are the best. Period. If I do meet another later he will not be better, just different from you and as good.You are the best thing to have happened to me in a long long time. That you keep me as your friend, knowing my feelings for you and trust me so deeply means I can never betray your trust.I wonder if its right to want you, love you, want to do so much for you and yet to hold back from you? if I know then that you have escaped me and the same thing with you. Would you hold me back if I came?