Started and ended with too much pain...

"And it all began when I met you..." I think my love story had begun when I met this guy. He was my first serious and formal boyfriend. It all started January 14, 2007 when we met each other. At first I really don't know him, then my friend Janina just introduced me to him because they said that that guy likes me. I don't believe that time because I know that he has girlfriend and I even know that girl. I thought for the first time that It was just a joke. I really don't like him. He got my number from my friends and texted me, knowing much about me. His first text was "eow poh! pde poh b mkipgkaibigan?" , so I asked his name, then he gave his name. I didn't recognized his name easily then I just knew it when he let me remembered the day Janina introduced me to him. Obviously I really didn't care about our first meeting. We became friends, then sometimes he's going in our room, my classmates said that he's visiting me. I told them that he has girlfriend already.Then since then, he didn't text me, nor visit me in our room. February 9, 2007 I saw him with his girlfriend, I felt the pain inside and I don't know why, it seems so dark everywhere. I can feel the intense pain that I was not really expecting. Then my friends just let me realized that I am loving him already. I kept away from him to avoid laving him because he is committed to his girlfriend. After a month, he told me that he broke up with his girl because the girl fooled her. I don't feel pity of him instead I got angry at him because I was thinking that why did he tell me so? What is his intention? to let me fall in love with him? But then girls are very patient and kindhearted, I accepted him as whom he is. He courted me and I answered him after 2 months. After that we are already formally committed. I loved him so much. We last for one year and 2 months and we had our very emotional break up personally because he is loving someone already. I decide to quit from that relationship even though it's too hard for me to do that. I just thought that it was the best thing to do. With in that one year of relationship, I loved him so much and the same thing with him, when we had our break up, it was too emotional like what I said so. I was not expecting that he would cry, he cried at my front and asking for apology. Iwant to forget everything that time, like a computer I want to erase everything. Our love story began and ended with a pain that I feel. Love is really unexpected. I was not happy with my first love but I learned a lot of things from him and I thanked him very much for that. I hope that when the time that I fall in love again, I want to be wiser at all. I don't want the pain anymore but it can't be avoided because since you love, you'll surely experience the happiness and especially the pain that you can't hide.

Poem for me..

Staring Through The Night

Walking of the mind in these drying seas,
Without whom I've waited for all these years.
It's like the Achilles heel of the heart,
Just waking up with nothing from the start.

You are the one I'm thinking through the night,
There are just somethings I can't live without.
Dreaming of that we're alone together,
It's just simply makes me a bit stronger.

No one can deny what I feel for you,
A mystery without a single clue.
I want you near me, even in my dreams,
In silence without any noise or screams.

Far away looking at you endlessly,
But you're happy now whenever I see.
So from a distance I'm getting good view,
Of what's used to be mine and it was you.

If you come back, It would change everything,
I'd do all this just to make your heart sing.
Please don't say goodbye my one and only,
For I don't want to miss you so badly.

A promise to never leave each other,
But now lonely without any partner.
Just give me one chance to prove my feeling,
You wont regret even a single thing.

Won't you even talk to me this one time,
Just say yes and my heart is in cloud nine.
Now don't tell me that you want to be free,
It's just to sad now you will leave me.

Told you to save me your last dance tonight,
Cause this is the last time to prove I'm right.
I know that you are too good to be true,
I simply want to say I LOVE YOU...XD